The 10 Days of Paramore – Conspiracy

Day Six

There’s this book I almost finished reading a while back which said something to the effect that the ability to change the world lies in the power of our thoughts. I remember thinking to myself, well if that’s true, it’s quite possible that the 100 lb, 4’10 wonder I see in the mirror everyday may be one of the the most powerful people in the world. Honestly, I really don’t know anyone that thinks as much as I do. Obviously, my efforts to harness this power, and use it for the greater good, up to this point have been a massive fail, so i’ll probably have to accept the fact that i’ll never get around to changing the world. But I’d settle for changing mine.

Its hard to describe, but there was a brief moment when I was a kid when I felt invincible. I would race my sister fearlessly down slopes with tucked poles and parallel skis. I babbled on to anyone and everyone without a care or insecurity in the world to wonder if i was even being interesting. I wanted to ride every roller coaster, regardless if I was tall enough to meet the minimum height requirement. I once ran up the side of the Sydney Opera House and perched myself on a ledge just because I was bored and wanted a better view of the harbour. Bottom line is that once upon a time, I didn’t give a shit. I went through life ignoring my own mortality and thinking the only opinion that matter was my own. Some days I feel like I’m getting that back, but lately its been a one step forward, two steps back kind of process. I’ve been somewhat unfocused the last few months, getting caught up in life’s distractions, but I realize now that getting back to that state of fearlessness has become my first priority. The sun is rising now, and with it, a renewed sense of hope that my world is already changing, just simply knowing that I have this something to strive towards now.

“The night is darkest just before the dawn, and I promise you the dawn is coming.” – The Dark Knight