The 10 Days of Paramore – Feeling Sorry
Day Nine
So I know this girl. She is plagued with regret and completely lacking in confidence at times. She constantly apologizes, usually for things she really has no need to feel sorry about. It’s sad and annoying, but only because she has all the potential in the world to be awesome, if only she adjusted her outlook on life a little bit.
Maybe you have a friend like her. Someone who does not quite understand yet that the real tragedy is not in the time we “wasted” making mistakes, but in the time we spend in the post mortem…agonizing over the what-if details.
Oh, if you haven’t guessed by now, this friend I’m talking about is the who stares back at me in the mirror every morning, but on a positive note, the 2010 version of Dianne was a lot better than 2009, so I feel hopeful with the following resolutions, Dianne v.2011 is gonna be even better.
11 Resolutions for 2011
1. To steal the very wise words of a dear friend…learn to fake it til I make it.
2. Learn to play a new song every week on the guitar & play at least 5 of them in front of other people. (I started taking guitar lessons again and so the first part of this resolution should be a breeze, thanks to my awesome new teacher)
3. solo visit to another country – ___ & ___ are looking pretty good right now
4. Train myself to not look more than 4 days into the future and 24 hours into the past
5. Try something new…foodwise (because trying cheesesteaks and burritos worked out pretty good for me in 2010)
6. Upload my pictures in more timely fashion
7. Finish writing at least one of my books
8. Pay all of my bills on time
9. Promise not to do in 2011 the thing that I did at least four times in 2010. =X
10. Be a better friend, sister, daughter
11. Stop apologizing for crap decisions, and just move forward, like today’s Paramore song
~ I’m getting bored waiting round you, you’re not getting any younger,
and I won’t look back cause there’s no use, it’s time to move forward ~
The 10 Days of Paramore – For a Pessimist, I’m Pretty Optimistic
Day Eight
Today is random factoid day. There’s 28…because, well…I’m 28 and it felt like a nice even number. Here goes…meaningless trivia that will in no way add anything to your life. You’re welcome 🙂
1. Some days I wish I snorted when I laughed…just cause I think it makes other people laugh harder.
2. If there’s a guy I really like, I cease using his real name when I talk about him to friends. He gets a nickname that he will never find out about.
3. I sometimes eat rice with mac and cheese. It’s a comfort thing that I justify to others by telling them I’m asian and therefore eat rice with everything.
4. I remember at least two or three dreams a night…half are violent, death-by-alligator or falling off bridge dreams, the other half are silly like not being able to find a raccoon mask or walking out of my house with no shoes on.
5. Love’s not a competition but I’m winning.
6. The most terrible thing said to me this week was “oh, your hair looks interesting today”.
The most terrible thing that someone ever said to me, ever, was that I had the worst taste in movies.
7. My life hasn’t been the same since Chinabowl closed.
8. I looove it when guys wear blue button downs with a t-shirt underneath.
9. Three things I prefer to do by myself is travel, watch movies and drive. I say drive because I sing insanely loud when I am by myself.
10. When I was in kindergarten we had to draw a picture of what we wanted to be when we grew up. I drew a mom and my teacher said that wasn’t a real profession. I think I still want to be a mom someday, but I’m really scared of how big of a bitch I’ll be for nine months without coffee or sushi or chocolate.
11. The only thing that makes me want to vomit besides vomit, is ketchup.
12. I take serious umbrage against two things – 1) that I suffer from a severe case of insomnia at night when I have ABSOLUTELY no trouble falling asleep at work and 2) fridge makers don’t think freezers are deserving of a light.
13. If there is a heaven, I hope it’s like Defending Your Life, where you can eat anything you want and not gain an ounce, and you can see what you were in past lives.
14. If there is a heaven, God probably lost my invitation sometime after I did this very bad thing once at church.
15. If we could see who we were in our past lives, I think I’d see a hockey player, a penguin, and maybe someone who died at a ketchup factory.
16. A cute guy escalates to hot if he can make me laugh or quote a movie.
17. An okay looking guy gets demoted in attractiveness for excessive typos or being too close of a talker.
18. I once peed in a library. Not the library bathroom…like between the stacks.
19. I once ate a 1.5lb bag of crispy m&ms in one sitting. I should be embarrassed by this factoid, but I feel pretty proud actually.
20. Each day, I grow more and more convinced that there is a ghost or two following me around.
21. One of my favorite things in the world is hearing my sister, goddaughter or my brother laugh.
22. I love watching TV, but I really, really hate reality TV…because hello? reality? That’s what I’m trying to escape from…
22. I often fake sickness, only to get actually sick a week or two later.
23. Chris Carrabba and I hugged for 13 seconds once after he signed my capo. Haven’t met a guy yet that could hug as good as him. I might be forever ruined.
24. I miss my flag football days.
25. I love having my own place for three main reasons 1) I get to control the temperature 2) I get to control the remote 3) I can eat breakfast for dinner without judgment.
26. Found out recently that I am not the only one who hates the feeling of tissues or newspaper when my hands are dry.
27. One day I will have at least three __ . (no not babies)
28. Like today’s Paramore song….For a Pessimist, I’m Pretty Optimistic
The 10 Days of Paramore – Turn It Off
Day Seven
Truth be told, I have been suffering from a severe case of writer’s block for the last few weeks. Anyone whose suffered through kidney stones or mall holiday-induced gridlock knows there’s nothing worse than a blockage…but since words and I seem to not be friends, at the moment, I suppose the best I can do is leave you with a movie and song suggestion at least…both of which will do a much better job than me, at capturing the mood.
So if life were a movie, right now it would be the one I have been watching on repeat almost every night for the past few weeks, Alice in Wonderland – particularly the scene where we see her falling down the rabbit hole, almost endlessly. The Paramore song for the day, needs no explanation, as the lyrics are poignant enough to speak for itself and my present state of mind.
“and in the free fall I will realize I’m better off when I hit the bottom…”
If My Life Had a Soundtrack 